Obsession

I was a lonely lonely man
Searching searching
For lifes true meaning
Exploring exploring myself,
Plumbing the depths
where had i gone wrong?
why was i so miserable?
why did i feel so inadequate?

Then i met u
I talked and i talked
u made me smile and laugh
u gave me what i needed
an anchor into whom i could drop my soul
i looked into your eyes
i saw myself
For the first time in my life
i liked what i saw
Even though it was me!

U listened and u confided
U beleived and u comforted
U adored and u loved
U gave and u received
U felt and u made me feel
U giggled and u seduced
U cried and u laughed
U made me love
Oh how u made me love

That wondrous feeling
Oh that feeling of joy
That feeling of being alive

How I love to love

I felt like i could rule the world
That i could accomplish anything
I knew the meanng
The meaning of life
Every love song made sense
Every poem was beautiful
Life was a sonata
U gave me life
If i was with u
the world was lovely

Then u left
i wept
U said we couldint be together
I begged
U said it was impossible
I pleaded
I swore I would do anything
U cried
U refused

I still remember
When we made love
How your soft and smooth body
Would cling to me
How you made me feel like giving and giving
Till i heard those screams
Those screams of ecstacy
They still linger
In my head

Long after u have gone
I wake up in the middle of the night
I hear those screams
Im sweating and shaking
I need u next to me
But all i feel is the emptiness
So I cover my useless body
And curse God

Why? Oh Why Lord did u show her to me?
Why did u let me see what i was missing?

Before I was miserable
Before I was unhappy
But i did not know i was
Now I search and search
Cry and weep
Oh life is torture
Life is pain

Oh how those memories taunt me
Do u think of me?
Oh Lord stop this frustration
Have u found another?
Save me from this longing

Does lightning strike twice?
Will I ever love again?